Sunday, January 23, 2011

Just a Thought...

Sometimes I get the feeling that God is speaking and I am just not hearing. Or maybe I am hearing but not understanding. His word says, " Deep calls unto deep at the noise of Your waterfalls; All Your waves and billows have gone over me." (Ps. 42:7) I don't fully know what that means except that I always took it to mean that the depths of who we are, the person that we really are, the soul of who we are is what hears and responds to the depths of God speaking to us. That He speaks to the parts of us that we didn't even know existed or were even possible to exist. And that if we really want to hear the heart of God, really, really hear, we have to quiet ourselves so that our depth can hear His depth. And that is why so many times we can feel or sense God at work but not quite grasp what is going on. Our depths are sensing it, but can't seem to make it's way to our shallow, easily heard sphere.
There is a level of God known easily by man, revealed to us in a plain way. But there is so much more to Him than just what is seen at a glance or felt in a moment. There are depths and mysteries, and secrets that we can't even fathom to be real. And sometimes I can feel Him speaking and stirring in me. And I get so frustrated b/c I can't seem to tap into it fully. Can't seem to get that clarity on it that I so desperately want and need. I feel my "depths" churning within me. And when I feel that churning,that movement from deep within, it would be in my best interest to quiet all aound me so that I can hear what this voice of the Deep is saying to me. Because I believe that He is speaking, always speaking. It is just a matter of whether we are listening or not. And He has this way of pulling things from our depths that we didn't even know were there. Feelings, thoughts, longings. And He draws those out of us because, left on our own, we would bury them deep within never to see the light the day again.
I know there is more to this verse. I can sense it, feel it.
May I quiet myself, my chaos to hear what You are saying. And may I learn to not stop until You are done.